got desire?

There are times in life where you are already so lost yet not know it.  You keep going and going, farther and farther from where you're supposed to be.  I know I need to stay close to the Lord.  I need to seek Him in all that I do.  I need to hear the beating of His heart so mine can be in tune with His.  In short, I desperately need Him and I know it.  But I choose to go my own way--then I get hurt, I get confused, I get lost.

However, the love of God just won't let you go.  He reaches out to you.  He speaks to you.  He keeps loving you.

Since last Sunday, the Lord has repeatedly reminded me that I am utterly helpless without Him.  I am like a deer that just couldn't go without water--I couldn't go on living without Him.  I struggle to move forward and accomplish those which the Lord has placed in my hand to do but I have neglected the very provision He gave me in order to prosper--His Word.  This is evident in my slackness in reading His Word.  My Bible reading plan says I should be in Exodus 20 but I am still in Genesis until now. This depraved heart knows what I should do but it continuously refuses to follow what's right.  Oh how I desperately need God's constant rescuing. 

This reflection continued even in my church history class.  We were talking about the Reformation and how it accomplished so much in the life of the church during that time.  But the challenge for change and renewal, not just within our churches but more importantly within each individual hearts, continues on even today.  Yesterday, we received the news that my husband's mother has already gone to be with the Lord.  I told Dindo that we are indeed getting older each day.  Before long, we'd hear more of these news of loved ones passing away or even we ourselves may die anytime.  Life is short.  Time flies fast.  At the end of all these, only what I've done with and for Christ would really matter.  This morning in chapel, Sir Bob Long spoke about how much we need to desire God to be part of our lives.  We need to ask God to place in our hearts a continual thirst for Him, His word and His will.  Oh Lord, may my heart's desire be more of You each day.  (By the way, this post's title "Got Desire?" was the title of Sir Bob Long's message in chapel today.)

Here is a song that has been playing in mind today.  

All I want is more of You
All I want is more of You
Nothing I desire Lord
But more of You
All I want is more of You
All I want is more of You
Nothing I desire Lord
But more of You
More of You

Jesus I am thirsty
Won't You come and fill me
Earthly things have left me dry
Only You can satisfy
All I want is more of You